Wednesday, January 9, 2008

Weigh In 1/9

My first official weigh in of 2008!

No earth shattering news... I have been sick as a dog, which means eating regularly, but no exercising due to coughing and sinus issues. I am a pound below my pre-Christmas weight! I am now at 196.5. I keep thinking about how much lower that number could be if I could move around, but I have been on the couch or in the bed for the past few days. I think tonight I might try to get some activity in since I am finally on the road to recovery.

Maybe I am the only one who feels this way, but I have to share this.

So much of this is a mental struggle. It's not just about what I eat. It's not just about how much I exercise. I mean, January 2nd'ish, I was really fighting the thoughts of
  • This is just where I need to stop.
  • I should accept that I'm this size.
  • I've done well. I can stop here and be proud of my accomplishment.
  • I probably can't reach my goal anyway. How many times have I failed in the past?
  • I could gain five pounds and still be able to fit into my clothes. No one would even know.
  • I'm just not strong enough to do this. No one else feels the way I do. Everyone else is just zipping through their day...

Does anyone else fight through thoughts similar to these? Maybe it is just me - and that's OK. But, I find if I can just stick with it, despite my feelings, the numbers on the scale continue to move. And, I guess that's what matters. But it is harder to do it when I'm not always confident that I can do it.


Julie said...

I understand how you feel only on top of that I have the otherside of my doubts that keep me going. They are not exactly healthy either. I think I am beautiful but I still feel like I need to lose more weight to appeal to the opposite sex. I know that this is a silly and lack of confidence thought but I still think it. I would of course like to be able to be healthier but I think my main modivation some days is just to look more atractive to the opposite sex.
Keep up the good work. And I heard on the tv that exercise is supposed to help the immune system.... I don't know if it works but hell it is worth the try:)

Jan B said...

I have been where you are. In fact, I am there right now. Can I be happy at this weight? But I know that I have a lot more fat left on my belly. Will anyone else ever see it? Maybe not, but for me, it's not over until I say it is. And I am going to keep going.

After all, it's for the rest of my life that I eat this way and exercise. Also, while I am in fat burning mode, it comes off easier. Once you drop out of the mindset, it's harder to get back in, so just stay set on your course. And congratulations on the pound. I hope you are back 100% soon.

Mama Bear June said...

I definitely feel the same way. I think we all do. But I'm not ready to accept this size. I know I CAN do it because I've made such progress already. And I know you can, too.

I was not exercising for a whole MONTH because of being ill. Doctor ordered me to stop. But I'm on an exercise streak since Jan 1 and want to continue that throughout the year.

The past is the past. TODAY, you can succeed. You can do things differently than you did in the past. Don't keep doing the same thing and expect different results. ;-) Just take it one day at a time and visit other people's blogs of encouragement and motivation.
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Shannon @ Gabi's World said...

I can totally relate to the mental struggle!