Wednesday, November 14, 2007

I Guess We All Have Bad Days...

Well, this week was a rough one. I did fine, got exercise, ate the right things... Then.

Just to tell you the truth, PMS hit me like crazy this month! Around Halloween, I was fine. I walked by the candy bowl and didn't even care it was there. Then, Monday, it was like I was a drug addict. I ate more chocolate Monday than I have in the past 2 months. I probably ate a dozen pieces of chocolate candy. I came home and walked an extra mile to try to outdo the damage - and hoped it would help to suppress my appetite. No such luck.

I ate a few pieces Tuesday, maybe 4 or 5, but just couldn't turn off the switch. I'm paralyzed with fear that I am slipping back into bad habits. I have a lot of negative talk going on in my head that I'm trying to stop.

Want to hear my negative thoughts?
I just can't do this. I've got too much to lose. Just accept that I'm a big girl.
I've lost 20 pounds and still don't have any clothes that I need to throw out. Most people have shrunk out of their wardrobe by this point.
No one commented/complimented my weight (except Hubby). No one can even tell.
Quit doing this - it's too hard.
Just take a break from this and come back in January. If I came back in January, I would be up 10 pounds.

So, here's what I am saying to myself since I am UP A POUND this week:

I still weigh less than I did last month.
My clothes are looser. This one pound has not made my clothes tight, obviously.
I can still exercise. Even if I make an occasional bad food choice, I can exercise more, too.
I didn't eat the entire bowl of candy. :o)
A lot of this could be water and I might even lose 2 or 3 pounds this coming week to make up for it.
My goal is to lose 10.5 pounds by the end of the year, which is still possible.
It is important to me lose weight for a wedding that is next June. I still have more than 7 months to lose a lot of weight between now and then.

I know the positive comments I would leave on someone else's blog if she had the same week as I have had. It's just hard to believe it when you're saying it to yourself and not someone else.

But, I am not quitting. I'll be weighing in next week - with a loss - and keep working on it.


Shannon **Gabi's Mom** said...

I hope you have a better week this week. Tell that voice in your head to go suck on a rotten egg! Chocolate is a weakness for me too! We can't even have it in the house. 10 pieces was taking it easy compared to how I eat it.

ValleyGirl said...

That's the spirit!! You CAN do this! It's so important during a setback to remember the successes and how good they made you feel. And remember, this is a permanent lifestyle change, not just a quick fix so you can fit into a pretty dress for that wedding. The longer you keep at it, the more likely you're developing permanent healthy habits!

Donetta said...

It will be good to get the candy out of the house!

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